Thursday, February 7, 2013

My Brain is Missing

It has been about a month and a half since I posted last. To be honest, with the holidays I just could not bring myself to find anything to write about, and to be really honest I thought Google lost my account. I signed in with my email account and when asked to upgrade (which I never do), I thought heck if Beyonce can use up all of the power at the Superbowl surely I can upgrade. UGH.

Well from that moment on I could not post anything, there was not even a 'new post' button. I searched and searched, looked in the 'help' department and filled out a questionaire, making sure Mr. Google understood how frustrated I was that my loyal followers, or follower, could not read my words of wisdom. After an hour of searching tonight I signed out and thought maybe if I signed back in it would magically work, but secretly I was planning a way to find the internet's phone number and give her a piece of my mind. I entered my email address and password, they were wrong, that is when I realized I had been entering the wrong email. So as you can see I am on now, and I am not too proud nor too popular to admit when I am wrong, so I apologize Ms. Internet and Mr. Google, I was wrong to jump to conclusions.

As dumb as that sounds I really do feel like my brain is missing more than usual lately. I would tell you all of the dumb things that I have done, and there are plenty, but I cannot think of a single one of them right now. Shocking I know.

There is a lot going on right now, we are packing up our things to move "back home" or at least back to the place I grew up. I consider this house, this post, this state my "home." Needless to say I am having a hard time with even the little things. While attempting to sort our shoe closet and pack up our summer shoes I had a melt down, and will have to step over the pile of flip flops on my way to bed tonight. Trying to think about all of the things that we will and will not need the coming 14 months my mind goes blank and the tears start flowing. Kids switching schools, moving to a different house, saying goodbye to friends, leaving this state forever, and then trying to keep in mind that my husband is leaving is making me dumber I think. Now I know I am having a pity party right now, but to be honest this is the first party that I have been to in a few years so I am going to enjoy myself.

The military is not the only line of work that husbands and wives are gone, that families have to up and move and move again. I will say though military has a strong bond with the ones that are living this life. I will miss my friends that are like none other. There is a silent something that lets us all know that we are in this together and even on those hard days there is someone having the same hard day as you.

I guess this is not much of a 'blog' per say, but a thank you to the ones that have been with me, through brain and no brain. It is a hard night tonight trying to process the next chapter, but nevertheless, I am excited to see what it brings and the chapters after that. I am blessed and proud of the life I live.