Three months down. Three months that we have been apart. Three months that have seem to have flown by.
Ten months to go. Ten months that we will be apart. Ten months that seem like an eternity away.
With the numbers made aware, it is time to confess..... I have lost my mind. I am not complaining that we are apart, nor that we have so long to go. I am lost in the fact that, I am lost.
We are a military family (implied I know), but this time around is different. We moved back to our home town and are now around family, (insert sarcasm), all of them. The amazing thing with friends is that they are there when you need them. The amazing thing with family is that they are always there. So where is the problem? I apparently have realized that I want to be a hermit....... seriously live in the woods, eat beans out of a can and only talk to the animals..which are my children of course.
I have realized in the same sense that my husband is three months in of being away from his family, away from his friends, away from his normal. He has ten months to go, ten more months away, and ten more months to miss everything.
So what is the point of my rambling? I am not sure at this point... oh wait, yes, that I have lost my mind.
I am in between emotions of feeling bad for myself and feeling as though I have no right to feel bad for myself, my husband is the one that is away.
And then it hit me last night what it is. I miss my life I had, of course. My friends, my house, my job. But what I miss the most, is being lonely, seeing the soldiers, seeing the crying wives, seeing the children that only have one parent. And as sad as it all sounds, that is the normal that I am longing for. I am needing. I do not have. There is a respect that I feel when I think about my husband, and being home in a town that is not military is tearing me apart.
So I guess for the next ten months, I will get crazier and crazier. And I will document and share the crazy moments. The moments that make me look insane, and as time goes by make others notice just how insane I am. Stay tuned........ it is going to be a long ten months!!
